The title is pretty corny. But I've been kind of annoyed lately. I opened a formspring account and literally MOST of the questions are about girlfriends. Like 3 out of 10 aren't about girls, and it's just really overwhelming. People send me link to gossip sites asking me if something is true, or if the pictures are "photoshopped" and just asking millions of things that really shouldn't matter.
I released statements before... because I was trying to get over something, I was trying to get over the fact that my private life is no longer private. Everyone wants a little bit off of it, and get money from it.
I'm really in a cranky mood because I didn't get much sleep last night. I slept for at least 3 hours, and that's definitely not enough. I had too much on my mind. Too much to think about.. I was talking to someone special to me. And then I spent an hour thinking "What am I doing?" "Is this right or wrong?" "Am I happy?" "Am I on the RIGHT track?" You know just questioning every move I make ended up only with 3 hours of sleep, a huge massive head ache and a little bit unhappy. At least I had a big meal in the morning which I hardly ever get to have.
You know... thinking about it, I KNOW I am blessed. I'm leaving the dream, and I'm so blessed that I get to. I also have bad days, where I was just want to quit. I want to leave, I want to stop pretending sometimes. But it comes with territory when I chose to do this. The difference is... that I was young when I chose to do this. I didn't know that I'd have to give up my private life, and half my happiness to give people my music.
All I've ever wanted to do is music. I've always wanted to be a musician. I don't like acting, I don't like modeling, I don't like that stuff. Yeah, I do them but it's because it is part of my contract. But I'm not really into acting, I guess its fun sometimes. But my thing is music, I live, breathe and love music. I've never even dreamed of doing anything else until I signed with Disney and completely lost control of my life. That sounds dramatic, but if I'm not filming JONAS, I'm doing a movie, if I'm not doing a movie, I'm traveling doing PR and stuff. It gets really draining and I wish I could tune it down and just do the thing I love most which is music.
I'm so upset about some things and it's mainly that I have to hide so many things because I'm afraid. The media has ruined some things for me before, and I feel like they're out to do it AGAIN. Can't a 17 year old guy have his privacy? Have something to himself only? All of a sudden so many people want to know about what's going on with Selena, if we broke up or what not. Or if I'm "fighting" with Liam? Why do you guys care so much? Nothing happened. I didn't fight anyone, I didn't break-up with anyone. I'm just living my life the way I should. Things shouldn't be the way they are. What is the media trying to do exactly? create a "celebrity" by ruining their personal life? I don't understand.
I opened an account so I could answer some questions and I get SO many rude comments about how Liam is better than I am, or how I am better than Liam or how Selena is better than Miley or Miley is better than Selena. Guys, we're HUMAN? God created us to be equal but independent. No one's better or worse than anyone. Liam is a great actor, he did a great job in The Last Song with Miley. I don't KNOW the guy that well, I'm not going to sit and bash him? There's no point in that. He is a nice person from what I've seen, and people seriously need to leave that alone. Same with Selena, she's such a great person to me. She actually sits down and listens to me and helps me out with whatever problem I have. We do things we enjoy together, and we always have a great time. Miley is my best friend, she's hilarious and fun. She's always making me smile and making sure I have a great time with her, and I love that too. And I KNOW I'm a good guy. I know that there's million of people out there that musically are a LOT better and more talented that I am, but I'm the person that gets to live my dream. Let me live it alone. I know I'm talented too. I'm a good song-writer and may not be the best singer but I'm a good musician and I'm a GOOD person. I know I inspire many people and get them through things with my music. That's why I'm here, to reach out to people as I live my dream. WHY ruin someone's private life when all they're doing is living their dream? I don't understand.
They want to see us with someone and we HAVE to do it to make people happy. What happened to OUR happiness too? Does it mean anything to the media? NO, it doesn't as long as they're making good money. To them we're like one of those animals stuck in a zoo. We amuse people with our personal life and it gets overwhelming.
Then I get someone making FUN of my diabetes? seriously? how low can people go to tear someone down? Yes, I'm diabetic, and I help people with struggles too. I give them something to believe in. I give them hope and let them know that they're STILL people and shouldn't be afraid of living their dream because of a struggle. I live with it everyday, I check my blood sugar, I inject insulin, I work out everyday, I avoid eating sweets, I eat healthy food. And I try to juggle it with the MEDIA barging in my life, tour, filming and making music. What else can I DO to make people happy? I'm TRYING, but sometimes it just makes me want to quit too. It makes me sick to my stomach how people can be so judgmental and careless about someone.
Honestly I don't KNOW how some people do it. I don't know how Miley does it. She's come to me crying because people are so rude to her everyday. How people shout in the streets calling her a slut or a whore, when she's the complete OPPOSITE of that. Demi came to me crying because people were saying she's too pale and she's "emo" and made fun of her sister's weight. Guys that's horrible. When did bullying someone became so much fun? We all might be confident, but we all have a line that people crosses sometimes. We're human beings. We CAN get self-conscious.
We need to stop the hate... we need to stop all together. Look who the world is reacting to it? Did you know Chile had another earthquake? do you know how many people are getting raped out there? How many pedophiles are in this world taking childs? People just care, the MEDIA just cares about tearing us down and bullying us. When I KNOW I'd pay a milliom dollars for a good story about the world that surrounds us. Where we LIVE. We're all human beings. We're all people. Don't judge someone because of their way of life, their struggles, their believes. Be open minded. The world needs us right now. We need each other. And you know it. Specially right now. Let's all actually make a change. Let's stick together instead of AGAINST each other so much. Stop making wars and start making friendships. Don't let the devil take over.
This has gotten so bad now, and it's really sad. And I'm so overwhelmed. Try listening to "Man In The Mirror" by Michael Jackson or "We Are The World". The guy was a genius.
Let's try to be the change we want to see. I'll leave you guys with this to think about.
P.S. One spark stars a fire