Friday, March 12, 2010

Senseless Rambling

The title is pretty corny. But I've been kind of annoyed lately. I opened a formspring account and literally MOST of the questions are about girlfriends. Like 3 out of 10 aren't about girls, and it's just really overwhelming. People send me link to gossip sites asking me if something is true, or if the pictures are "photoshopped" and just asking millions of things that really shouldn't matter.

I released statements before... because I was trying to get over something, I was trying to get over the fact that my private life is no longer private. Everyone wants a little bit off of it, and get money from it.

I'm really in a cranky mood because I didn't get much sleep last night. I slept for at least 3 hours, and that's definitely not enough. I had too much on my mind. Too much to think about.. I was talking to someone special to me. And then I spent an hour thinking "What am I doing?" "Is this right or wrong?" "Am I happy?" "Am I on the RIGHT track?" You know just questioning every move I make ended up only with 3 hours of sleep, a huge massive head ache and a little bit unhappy. At least I had a big meal in the morning which I hardly ever get to have.

You know... thinking about it, I KNOW I am blessed. I'm leaving the dream, and I'm so blessed that I get to. I also have bad days, where I was just want to quit. I want to leave, I want to stop pretending sometimes. But it comes with territory when I chose to do this. The difference is... that I was young when I chose to do this. I didn't know that I'd have to give up my private life, and half my happiness to give people my music.

All I've ever wanted to do is music. I've always wanted to be a musician. I don't like acting, I don't like modeling, I don't like that stuff. Yeah, I do them but it's because it is part of my contract. But I'm not really into acting, I guess its fun sometimes. But my thing is music, I live, breathe and love music. I've never even dreamed of doing anything else until I signed with Disney and completely lost control of my life. That sounds dramatic, but if I'm not filming JONAS, I'm doing a movie, if I'm not doing a movie, I'm traveling doing PR and stuff. It gets really draining and I wish I could tune it down and just do the thing I love most which is music.

I'm so upset about some things and it's mainly that I have to hide so many things because I'm afraid. The media has ruined some things for me before, and I feel like they're out to do it AGAIN. Can't a 17 year old guy have his privacy? Have something to himself only? All of a sudden so many people want to know about what's going on with Selena, if we broke up or what not. Or if I'm "fighting" with Liam? Why do you guys care so much? Nothing happened. I didn't fight anyone, I didn't break-up with anyone. I'm just living my life the way I should. Things shouldn't be the way they are. What is the media trying to do exactly? create a "celebrity" by ruining their personal life? I don't understand.

I opened an account so I could answer some questions and I get SO many rude comments about how Liam is better than I am, or how I am better than Liam or how Selena is better than Miley or Miley is better than Selena. Guys, we're HUMAN? God created us to be equal but independent. No one's better or worse than anyone. Liam is a great actor, he did a great job in The Last Song with Miley. I don't KNOW the guy that well, I'm not going to sit and bash him? There's no point in that. He is a nice person from what I've seen, and people seriously need to leave that alone. Same with Selena, she's such a great person to me. She actually sits down and listens to me and helps me out with whatever problem I have. We do things we enjoy together, and we always have a great time. Miley is my best friend, she's hilarious and fun. She's always making me smile and making sure I have a great time with her, and I love that too. And I KNOW I'm a good guy. I know that there's million of people out there that musically are a LOT better and more talented that I am, but I'm the person that gets to live my dream. Let me live it alone. I know I'm talented too. I'm a good song-writer and may not be the best singer but I'm a good musician and I'm a GOOD person. I know I inspire many people and get them through things with my music. That's why I'm here, to reach out to people as I live my dream. WHY ruin someone's private life when all they're doing is living their dream? I don't understand.
They want to see us with someone and we HAVE to do it to make people happy. What happened to OUR happiness too? Does it mean anything to the media? NO, it doesn't as long as they're making good money. To them we're like one of those animals stuck in a zoo. We amuse people with our personal life and it gets overwhelming.

Then I get someone making FUN of my diabetes? seriously? how low can people go to tear someone down? Yes, I'm diabetic, and I help people with struggles too. I give them something to believe in. I give them hope and let them know that they're STILL people and shouldn't be afraid of living their dream because of a struggle. I live with it everyday, I check my blood sugar, I inject insulin, I work out everyday, I avoid eating sweets, I eat healthy food. And I try to juggle it with the MEDIA barging in my life, tour, filming and making music. What else can I DO to make people happy? I'm TRYING, but sometimes it just makes me want to quit too. It makes me sick to my stomach how people can be so judgmental and careless about someone.

Honestly I don't KNOW how some people do it. I don't know how Miley does it. She's come to me crying because people are so rude to her everyday. How people shout in the streets calling her a slut or a whore, when she's the complete OPPOSITE of that. Demi came to me crying because people were saying she's too pale and she's "emo" and made fun of her sister's weight. Guys that's horrible. When did bullying someone became so much fun? We all might be confident, but we all have a line that people crosses sometimes. We're human beings. We CAN get self-conscious.

We need to stop the hate... we need to stop all together. Look who the world is reacting to it? Did you know Chile had another earthquake? do you know how many people are getting raped out there? How many pedophiles are in this world taking childs? People just care, the MEDIA just cares about tearing us down and bullying us. When I KNOW I'd pay a milliom dollars for a good story about the world that surrounds us. Where we LIVE. We're all human beings. We're all people. Don't judge someone because of their way of life, their struggles, their believes. Be open minded. The world needs us right now. We need each other. And you know it. Specially right now. Let's all actually make a change. Let's stick together instead of AGAINST each other so much. Stop making wars and start making friendships. Don't let the devil take over.

This has gotten so bad now, and it's really sad. And I'm so overwhelmed. Try listening to "Man In The Mirror" by Michael Jackson or "We Are The World". The guy was a genius.

Let's try to be the change we want to see. I'll leave you guys with this to think about.

Sincerely,
Nick

P.S. One spark stars a fire

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

New Twitter!!!

Yeah, I couldn't get NickyJonas back on running so I decided to make a new twitter "NJstweet" feel free to follow me there haha! Sucks because I had 4,000 followes before, and now I have a few. So spread the word as much as you can explain WHY I don't want this account to be "verified." etc.
So yeah, spread the word about my twitter and my formspring. I'm getting "internet" active again, kind of. Of course, I'm not going to spend as much time on those things. I try to answer as many questions on formspring as I can, but I've been getting a LOT lately. So yeah! Spread the word!! and FOLLOW!!

www.twitter.com/njstweet

www.formspring.me/isnickjonas

Monday, March 1, 2010

Thoughts

This week has been insane and sad also. Really sad. My heart goes out to Chile and all its people, what happened is horrible and I really hope they can get through it somehow. The Tsunami warnings, thankfully Hawaii wasn't harmed, but unfortunately Chile got that tsunami and ended up destroying it and there are over 300 people dead, but even worse they still don't KNOW how many people are really dead. And its just wow.. really depressing, I'm praying and hoping that someday it'll get better. Guys this is obviously a cry for help, a cry to get involved. We NEED to help our planet, we are destroying it. It's terrible how BAD we're harming it. Get involved, you say you care? Pick up garbage you see on the floor, turn off the lights when you're not using it, don't DRIVE around when you don't have to go too far away, don't use spray if unnecessary. These things DO make a change. They really do, just try it. Get involved with charities for Haiti and Chile. Pray. Be a helping hand. Lend your time. Donate. One action causes a chain reaction. Be a part of it.

My love life. People can't really seem to leave that alone.. haha, so many people care. I don't understand, you see a couple making out on the streets and you don't care. But then you see a "celebrity" couple and it turns into SUCH a big deal. It's like we stopped being human the moment we stepped into Hollywood and that's really sad to me. But at least I'm happy with who I am with. I love them with everything in me. And that's what its important. I love their company, I love having them around and laughing along with them, and having a great time together. I have my best friends; my brothers, Garbo, Miley and Selena. I love them all, they're amazing. I love hanging out with all of them. As for who I am dating, leave it alone. You might think you know the whole story, when you can be FAR way off. I just try and laugh it off, but I'm SO happy and I love that my fans care.

JONAS. Yes, we're filming JONAS!!! I'm SO hyped, SO excited. You have no idea!!! I got to surf for a scene and I love surfing, its a lot of fun. I'm not all that good at it, but hey! I try haha. I had a couple of scenes with Nicole Anderson and its just awesome. We have a LOT going on this time, a lot of funny things you might want to catch up for! It's going to be amazing. We do this things for you, we work hard every day for you guys.

STAY comes out tomorrow!!! Are you excited?? that's my favorite song that I've written, and it means so much to me, I'm just so excited that it comes out finally, that you'll get to hear the final edition. I'm super stoked. The song is beutiful, its a soulful amazing song. I always get emotinal singing it and hearing. It was meant for someone special, you know who you are, and well I just hope you learn to love it as much as I do.

I'm so happy with my life. I love it, I'm so happy that I get to do such wonderful things. That I get to perform in front of thousands of people one day and the next I'm filming my show. Then I'm hanging out with my beautiful girlfriend and then I'm recording music the next. And its so overwhelming but all so amazing at the same time. And its just wow, I'm so blessed. I really am.

Also, Miley yesterday went through a rough time. She already posted about it and I just wanted to say that I've never met someone as strong and amazing as Miley is. Someone that can share her feelings and trusts that you won't disappoint her. I love her to death, she's the most enchanting and sweetest girl ever and having seen her that bummed just proves that she's human, but somehow it just makes her even more amaizng. She talks a lot about how the pictures are always "photoshopped" and how they make her look "prettier" and stuff, ha Miley is just beautiful. Airbrushed pictures or not. And inside she's beutiful too. I'm always here for her and I hope she knows that. She's the most amazing friend I'v e got. I'd NEVER trade what we have NOW, ever. I trust her with every single bit of my mind, and I'd never seen her as sad before. But every tear she cried meant the pain was about subside and it's worth wiping them off their face because every tear she said was just a tear closer to a smile. A smile that MILLIONS love, including me. She has the most contagious smile I've ever seen, and I'm one of the lucky people that gets to see it. I'm so blessed to have her in my life. Thank you for being the most amazing best friend in the world Miley. I love you.

Well... that's all I've really wanted to share for right now. Don't forget that Camp Rock 2 comes out this Summer, and to buy "Stay" Tomorrow as soon as it comes out. God bless you guys.

sincerely,
Nick

P.S. The truest words are the words that are unspoken. Let me look in your eyes to see the love you gave for me.

P.P.S. I love you.