Do we ever know what life is all about? living? No, I don't think you were given a life just to live it like is nothing. We're all human, right? We all make mistakes, we all do stupid things, we all say things we don't mean sometimes when we're upset. Its all true and sometimes you can't change the past. But, what I don't understand how is it so right for someone to make the same mistakes over and over KNOWING its just the same thing over again. I don't understand it, do they enjoy in? I get making mistakes comes with growing. I make mistakes everyday of my life. But I don't UNDERSTAND why is making the SAME mistake such a big "thrill" for some people. Its just tiring and stupid to me. And CHILDISH.
I may be too mature, or maybe just not mature at all. But my point of view on things have changed over the past few months. I used to be okay with repeating a story and making someone happy doing stuff their way. But honestly I'm just SICK and tired of the same routine now. I hate telling myself over and over "That's what she said." All. The.Time. I remind myself to not take too seriously what anyone says when they're having their "moment". Okay, cool if you want to do the same mistakes, if you want to say things in the spare of the moment. Go ahead. But don't say it so much it comes out sounding like bullcrap.
A lot of you must be thinking "He is upset." Yes, I admit. I'm upset. I'm beyond pissed. Because I've been put where I was a year ago. In the same position, same story. I am happy with most of it, I've BEEN happy. I have. But I feel like I'm walking on a safe path! I'm not learning anything from it! I don't even know what the hell I want. Its stupid, I'm confused now. I'm so mad, upset and confused. Because I thought I wanted to be where I am, but now I'm just NOT SURE anymore! I'm caught between these stupid feelings. But once again, I'm human. MAYBE this is my mistake, maybe I'm the one that's wrong. But I can't help the way I feel, I just can't. This is just something thats bothering me so much. I want to make sure I'm happy years from now. Not oblivious to the world, and how it works. I'm just.. I don't know.
I would love it if you commented this and tell me what you thought afterwards. ALL of you, tell me what you think of this and how you see it.