The title is pretty corny. But I've been kind of annoyed lately. I opened a formspring account and literally MOST of the questions are about girlfriends. Like 3 out of 10 aren't about girls, and it's just really overwhelming. People send me link to gossip sites asking me if something is true, or if the pictures are "photoshopped" and just asking millions of things that really shouldn't matter.
I released statements before... because I was trying to get over something, I was trying to get over the fact that my private life is no longer private. Everyone wants a little bit off of it, and get money from it.
I'm really in a cranky mood because I didn't get much sleep last night. I slept for at least 3 hours, and that's definitely not enough. I had too much on my mind. Too much to think about.. I was talking to someone special to me. And then I spent an hour thinking "What am I doing?" "Is this right or wrong?" "Am I happy?" "Am I on the RIGHT track?" You know just questioning every move I make ended up only with 3 hours of sleep, a huge massive head ache and a little bit unhappy. At least I had a big meal in the morning which I hardly ever get to have.
You know... thinking about it, I KNOW I am blessed. I'm leaving the dream, and I'm so blessed that I get to. I also have bad days, where I was just want to quit. I want to leave, I want to stop pretending sometimes. But it comes with territory when I chose to do this. The difference is... that I was young when I chose to do this. I didn't know that I'd have to give up my private life, and half my happiness to give people my music.
All I've ever wanted to do is music. I've always wanted to be a musician. I don't like acting, I don't like modeling, I don't like that stuff. Yeah, I do them but it's because it is part of my contract. But I'm not really into acting, I guess its fun sometimes. But my thing is music, I live, breathe and love music. I've never even dreamed of doing anything else until I signed with Disney and completely lost control of my life. That sounds dramatic, but if I'm not filming JONAS, I'm doing a movie, if I'm not doing a movie, I'm traveling doing PR and stuff. It gets really draining and I wish I could tune it down and just do the thing I love most which is music.
I'm so upset about some things and it's mainly that I have to hide so many things because I'm afraid. The media has ruined some things for me before, and I feel like they're out to do it AGAIN. Can't a 17 year old guy have his privacy? Have something to himself only? All of a sudden so many people want to know about what's going on with Selena, if we broke up or what not. Or if I'm "fighting" with Liam? Why do you guys care so much? Nothing happened. I didn't fight anyone, I didn't break-up with anyone. I'm just living my life the way I should. Things shouldn't be the way they are. What is the media trying to do exactly? create a "celebrity" by ruining their personal life? I don't understand.
I opened an account so I could answer some questions and I get SO many rude comments about how Liam is better than I am, or how I am better than Liam or how Selena is better than Miley or Miley is better than Selena. Guys, we're HUMAN? God created us to be equal but independent. No one's better or worse than anyone. Liam is a great actor, he did a great job in The Last Song with Miley. I don't KNOW the guy that well, I'm not going to sit and bash him? There's no point in that. He is a nice person from what I've seen, and people seriously need to leave that alone. Same with Selena, she's such a great person to me. She actually sits down and listens to me and helps me out with whatever problem I have. We do things we enjoy together, and we always have a great time. Miley is my best friend, she's hilarious and fun. She's always making me smile and making sure I have a great time with her, and I love that too. And I KNOW I'm a good guy. I know that there's million of people out there that musically are a LOT better and more talented that I am, but I'm the person that gets to live my dream. Let me live it alone. I know I'm talented too. I'm a good song-writer and may not be the best singer but I'm a good musician and I'm a GOOD person. I know I inspire many people and get them through things with my music. That's why I'm here, to reach out to people as I live my dream. WHY ruin someone's private life when all they're doing is living their dream? I don't understand.
They want to see us with someone and we HAVE to do it to make people happy. What happened to OUR happiness too? Does it mean anything to the media? NO, it doesn't as long as they're making good money. To them we're like one of those animals stuck in a zoo. We amuse people with our personal life and it gets overwhelming.
Then I get someone making FUN of my diabetes? seriously? how low can people go to tear someone down? Yes, I'm diabetic, and I help people with struggles too. I give them something to believe in. I give them hope and let them know that they're STILL people and shouldn't be afraid of living their dream because of a struggle. I live with it everyday, I check my blood sugar, I inject insulin, I work out everyday, I avoid eating sweets, I eat healthy food. And I try to juggle it with the MEDIA barging in my life, tour, filming and making music. What else can I DO to make people happy? I'm TRYING, but sometimes it just makes me want to quit too. It makes me sick to my stomach how people can be so judgmental and careless about someone.
Honestly I don't KNOW how some people do it. I don't know how Miley does it. She's come to me crying because people are so rude to her everyday. How people shout in the streets calling her a slut or a whore, when she's the complete OPPOSITE of that. Demi came to me crying because people were saying she's too pale and she's "emo" and made fun of her sister's weight. Guys that's horrible. When did bullying someone became so much fun? We all might be confident, but we all have a line that people crosses sometimes. We're human beings. We CAN get self-conscious.
We need to stop the hate... we need to stop all together. Look who the world is reacting to it? Did you know Chile had another earthquake? do you know how many people are getting raped out there? How many pedophiles are in this world taking childs? People just care, the MEDIA just cares about tearing us down and bullying us. When I KNOW I'd pay a milliom dollars for a good story about the world that surrounds us. Where we LIVE. We're all human beings. We're all people. Don't judge someone because of their way of life, their struggles, their believes. Be open minded. The world needs us right now. We need each other. And you know it. Specially right now. Let's all actually make a change. Let's stick together instead of AGAINST each other so much. Stop making wars and start making friendships. Don't let the devil take over.
This has gotten so bad now, and it's really sad. And I'm so overwhelmed. Try listening to "Man In The Mirror" by Michael Jackson or "We Are The World". The guy was a genius.
Let's try to be the change we want to see. I'll leave you guys with this to think about.
Sincerely,
Nick
P.S. One spark stars a fire
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
New Twitter!!!
Yeah, I couldn't get NickyJonas back on running so I decided to make a new twitter "NJstweet" feel free to follow me there haha! Sucks because I had 4,000 followes before, and now I have a few. So spread the word as much as you can explain WHY I don't want this account to be "verified." etc.
So yeah, spread the word about my twitter and my formspring. I'm getting "internet" active again, kind of. Of course, I'm not going to spend as much time on those things. I try to answer as many questions on formspring as I can, but I've been getting a LOT lately. So yeah! Spread the word!! and FOLLOW!!
www.twitter.com/njstweet
www.formspring.me/isnickjonas
So yeah, spread the word about my twitter and my formspring. I'm getting "internet" active again, kind of. Of course, I'm not going to spend as much time on those things. I try to answer as many questions on formspring as I can, but I've been getting a LOT lately. So yeah! Spread the word!! and FOLLOW!!
www.twitter.com/njstweet
www.formspring.me/isnickjonas
Monday, March 1, 2010
Thoughts
This week has been insane and sad also. Really sad. My heart goes out to Chile and all its people, what happened is horrible and I really hope they can get through it somehow. The Tsunami warnings, thankfully Hawaii wasn't harmed, but unfortunately Chile got that tsunami and ended up destroying it and there are over 300 people dead, but even worse they still don't KNOW how many people are really dead. And its just wow.. really depressing, I'm praying and hoping that someday it'll get better. Guys this is obviously a cry for help, a cry to get involved. We NEED to help our planet, we are destroying it. It's terrible how BAD we're harming it. Get involved, you say you care? Pick up garbage you see on the floor, turn off the lights when you're not using it, don't DRIVE around when you don't have to go too far away, don't use spray if unnecessary. These things DO make a change. They really do, just try it. Get involved with charities for Haiti and Chile. Pray. Be a helping hand. Lend your time. Donate. One action causes a chain reaction. Be a part of it.
My love life. People can't really seem to leave that alone.. haha, so many people care. I don't understand, you see a couple making out on the streets and you don't care. But then you see a "celebrity" couple and it turns into SUCH a big deal. It's like we stopped being human the moment we stepped into Hollywood and that's really sad to me. But at least I'm happy with who I am with. I love them with everything in me. And that's what its important. I love their company, I love having them around and laughing along with them, and having a great time together. I have my best friends; my brothers, Garbo, Miley and Selena. I love them all, they're amazing. I love hanging out with all of them. As for who I am dating, leave it alone. You might think you know the whole story, when you can be FAR way off. I just try and laugh it off, but I'm SO happy and I love that my fans care.
JONAS. Yes, we're filming JONAS!!! I'm SO hyped, SO excited. You have no idea!!! I got to surf for a scene and I love surfing, its a lot of fun. I'm not all that good at it, but hey! I try haha. I had a couple of scenes with Nicole Anderson and its just awesome. We have a LOT going on this time, a lot of funny things you might want to catch up for! It's going to be amazing. We do this things for you, we work hard every day for you guys.
STAY comes out tomorrow!!! Are you excited?? that's my favorite song that I've written, and it means so much to me, I'm just so excited that it comes out finally, that you'll get to hear the final edition. I'm super stoked. The song is beutiful, its a soulful amazing song. I always get emotinal singing it and hearing. It was meant for someone special, you know who you are, and well I just hope you learn to love it as much as I do.
I'm so happy with my life. I love it, I'm so happy that I get to do such wonderful things. That I get to perform in front of thousands of people one day and the next I'm filming my show. Then I'm hanging out with my beautiful girlfriend and then I'm recording music the next. And its so overwhelming but all so amazing at the same time. And its just wow, I'm so blessed. I really am.
Also, Miley yesterday went through a rough time. She already posted about it and I just wanted to say that I've never met someone as strong and amazing as Miley is. Someone that can share her feelings and trusts that you won't disappoint her. I love her to death, she's the most enchanting and sweetest girl ever and having seen her that bummed just proves that she's human, but somehow it just makes her even more amaizng. She talks a lot about how the pictures are always "photoshopped" and how they make her look "prettier" and stuff, ha Miley is just beautiful. Airbrushed pictures or not. And inside she's beutiful too. I'm always here for her and I hope she knows that. She's the most amazing friend I'v e got. I'd NEVER trade what we have NOW, ever. I trust her with every single bit of my mind, and I'd never seen her as sad before. But every tear she cried meant the pain was about subside and it's worth wiping them off their face because every tear she said was just a tear closer to a smile. A smile that MILLIONS love, including me. She has the most contagious smile I've ever seen, and I'm one of the lucky people that gets to see it. I'm so blessed to have her in my life. Thank you for being the most amazing best friend in the world Miley. I love you.
Well... that's all I've really wanted to share for right now. Don't forget that Camp Rock 2 comes out this Summer, and to buy "Stay" Tomorrow as soon as it comes out. God bless you guys.
sincerely,
Nick
P.S. The truest words are the words that are unspoken. Let me look in your eyes to see the love you gave for me.
P.P.S. I love you.
My love life. People can't really seem to leave that alone.. haha, so many people care. I don't understand, you see a couple making out on the streets and you don't care. But then you see a "celebrity" couple and it turns into SUCH a big deal. It's like we stopped being human the moment we stepped into Hollywood and that's really sad to me. But at least I'm happy with who I am with. I love them with everything in me. And that's what its important. I love their company, I love having them around and laughing along with them, and having a great time together. I have my best friends; my brothers, Garbo, Miley and Selena. I love them all, they're amazing. I love hanging out with all of them. As for who I am dating, leave it alone. You might think you know the whole story, when you can be FAR way off. I just try and laugh it off, but I'm SO happy and I love that my fans care.
JONAS. Yes, we're filming JONAS!!! I'm SO hyped, SO excited. You have no idea!!! I got to surf for a scene and I love surfing, its a lot of fun. I'm not all that good at it, but hey! I try haha. I had a couple of scenes with Nicole Anderson and its just awesome. We have a LOT going on this time, a lot of funny things you might want to catch up for! It's going to be amazing. We do this things for you, we work hard every day for you guys.
STAY comes out tomorrow!!! Are you excited?? that's my favorite song that I've written, and it means so much to me, I'm just so excited that it comes out finally, that you'll get to hear the final edition. I'm super stoked. The song is beutiful, its a soulful amazing song. I always get emotinal singing it and hearing. It was meant for someone special, you know who you are, and well I just hope you learn to love it as much as I do.
I'm so happy with my life. I love it, I'm so happy that I get to do such wonderful things. That I get to perform in front of thousands of people one day and the next I'm filming my show. Then I'm hanging out with my beautiful girlfriend and then I'm recording music the next. And its so overwhelming but all so amazing at the same time. And its just wow, I'm so blessed. I really am.
Also, Miley yesterday went through a rough time. She already posted about it and I just wanted to say that I've never met someone as strong and amazing as Miley is. Someone that can share her feelings and trusts that you won't disappoint her. I love her to death, she's the most enchanting and sweetest girl ever and having seen her that bummed just proves that she's human, but somehow it just makes her even more amaizng. She talks a lot about how the pictures are always "photoshopped" and how they make her look "prettier" and stuff, ha Miley is just beautiful. Airbrushed pictures or not. And inside she's beutiful too. I'm always here for her and I hope she knows that. She's the most amazing friend I'v e got. I'd NEVER trade what we have NOW, ever. I trust her with every single bit of my mind, and I'd never seen her as sad before. But every tear she cried meant the pain was about subside and it's worth wiping them off their face because every tear she said was just a tear closer to a smile. A smile that MILLIONS love, including me. She has the most contagious smile I've ever seen, and I'm one of the lucky people that gets to see it. I'm so blessed to have her in my life. Thank you for being the most amazing best friend in the world Miley. I love you.
Well... that's all I've really wanted to share for right now. Don't forget that Camp Rock 2 comes out this Summer, and to buy "Stay" Tomorrow as soon as it comes out. God bless you guys.
sincerely,
Nick
P.S. The truest words are the words that are unspoken. Let me look in your eyes to see the love you gave for me.
P.P.S. I love you.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Happy Vent
Okay.. so the title of this is kinda.. well gay to say the least, but its not BAD. I'm happy! I'm currently in bed eating candy and watching movies, and just enjoying being lazy :D WOO for laziness. Amazing. ANYWAYS, I am kinda congested... which is not as good. But there's something here keeping me occupied and happy.. and yeah, ANYWAYS!! So you know.. I'm here trying to think of something to blog about so is not something pointless and have you all hate me because is just.. words and then the blog not having a point. But it does have a point! and at the same time it doesn't! Because, I'm happy! and that's the point! but the BLOG is not an actual subject D:
So on to what I'm watching.. I was watching Scooby Doo on ABC family and now I'm watching Flinstons! I haven't seen these movies in forever!
So I'm kinda with someone special, sharing candy and watching these movies. We're laughing, and we're both kinda sick so.. its cool. In pajamas, its all good. My bed is HUGE, and its covered in candy wrappers D: its a mess. The covers are all over the place, we have soda on the table. And its amazing. It's so relaxing. I haven't been this relaxed in a while. They're reading while I type this so I'm gonna turn the computer.. they're not supposed to read this yet! Lol!
I'm in LOVE with life, I'm in love with someone. I haven't felt so at peace and amazed with someone in such a long period of time and its just amazing. Her eyes remind me of EVERY color in the world. Her smile makes my heart melt in my chest. Her laugh is just contagious. Her hair is soft and amazing. Did I mention she smells like vanilla? that's my favorite scent.. EVER. Haha! Will I tell you who this is? NO. I won't :D. You probably think you know. But nope. I won't sayyy.. why? cause I'm just selfish like that. I LOVE having something to myself And someone as beautiful as she is allllllll to myself. All I'm going to tell you is that she's funny, ADORABLE, cute, beautiful, sexy. Her voice is amazing, and velvety. Her lips remind me of candy. And well.. she's just beyond amazing. Go figure. :)
So the album is been out for a bit NOW. How cool?I'm SO excited! :) And STAY will be released sometime next month! I'm stoked!!
We Are The World was released yesterday too!! So WOOOO!!! I sang Billy Joel's part, how awesome? Billy Joel's like one of the best singers, and best talents ever. And of course the song was written by none other than Michael Jackson, what a BRILLIANT man he was. He was truly one of a kind. He had a heart of gold. I'm so proud that I was part of such a master piece.
ANYWAYS someone here is telling me to hurry up >.> So I'll make this short and sweet I guess.
I love my fans, I love my life, I love who's in it, I love what I'm doing.
Sincerly,
Nick
OHH and P.S. I love you
So on to what I'm watching.. I was watching Scooby Doo on ABC family and now I'm watching Flinstons! I haven't seen these movies in forever!
So I'm kinda with someone special, sharing candy and watching these movies. We're laughing, and we're both kinda sick so.. its cool. In pajamas, its all good. My bed is HUGE, and its covered in candy wrappers D: its a mess. The covers are all over the place, we have soda on the table. And its amazing. It's so relaxing. I haven't been this relaxed in a while. They're reading while I type this so I'm gonna turn the computer.. they're not supposed to read this yet! Lol!
I'm in LOVE with life, I'm in love with someone. I haven't felt so at peace and amazed with someone in such a long period of time and its just amazing. Her eyes remind me of EVERY color in the world. Her smile makes my heart melt in my chest. Her laugh is just contagious. Her hair is soft and amazing. Did I mention she smells like vanilla? that's my favorite scent.. EVER. Haha! Will I tell you who this is? NO. I won't :D. You probably think you know. But nope. I won't sayyy.. why? cause I'm just selfish like that. I LOVE having something to myself And someone as beautiful as she is allllllll to myself. All I'm going to tell you is that she's funny, ADORABLE, cute, beautiful, sexy. Her voice is amazing, and velvety. Her lips remind me of candy. And well.. she's just beyond amazing. Go figure. :)
So the album is been out for a bit NOW. How cool?I'm SO excited! :) And STAY will be released sometime next month! I'm stoked!!
We Are The World was released yesterday too!! So WOOOO!!! I sang Billy Joel's part, how awesome? Billy Joel's like one of the best singers, and best talents ever. And of course the song was written by none other than Michael Jackson, what a BRILLIANT man he was. He was truly one of a kind. He had a heart of gold. I'm so proud that I was part of such a master piece.
ANYWAYS someone here is telling me to hurry up >.> So I'll make this short and sweet I guess.
I love my fans, I love my life, I love who's in it, I love what I'm doing.
Sincerly,
Nick
OHH and P.S. I love you
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
WOW
WOW, I'm VERY pleased with some amazing news I just got. Who I Am sold 80,000 copies! Guys you are the MOST amazing fans in the world. I NEVER in a million years expected it getting SO big. I'm SO happy, and just wow. It is currently number 3 in the 200 billboard, and that's absolutely amazing. I'm so proud of my work, and how everyone responded to it. I honestly can't believe how big Nick Jonas and The Administration got and just.. wow, its amazing. I'm truly stunned.
I was SO nervous about this project because its something thats so close to ME, that project is me, my lyrics, my FEELINGS, and my music, and just seeing people relating to it and enjoying it. Its just wonderful. I cannot stop smiling right now.
I know I made over a million dollars with the Who I Am Tour, and NOW the record selling so many copies. I'm just in shock. I worked so hard into getting this done, I poured my soul into this project. I love this, you have no idea guys. I'm SO happy, and its just wow.
As you also may know I recorded "Stay" a few weeks ago. Everyone LOVED the song, and I can say that is my favorite song that I've written. Everyone is fighting over who the song is about, and I once AGAIN say, it shouldn't matter. That song is about someone that I love, that is MY inspiration, that is MY everything. And that's for ME to know and you to wonder about. You might think you have it all figured out, and you THINK you know who this is about, but truly you guys have NO idea. You have no idea how I feel, or what I was thinking when I wrote it.
I love this song, and I hope you feel like you can relate to it. Its my own favorite. I enjoy singing it, I enjoy performing it. And I'm happy that all of you get to hear it.
Anyways, like I said a few days ago I am SUPER content with life. Everything is so amazing, and I'm so happy with everything.
Valentine's Day is coming soon! And I have NO idea what I'm gonna do. I'm the kinda person that waits until the day, because if you PLAN something you might change your mind after. A lot of people go to the movies, or dinner, etc. And sounds like a plan. I'm more of the kinda person that likes to wait, do it randomly. I like doing spontaneous things, it doesn't make it any less romantic, it just makes it more interesting. Valentine's Day is just about spending the day with your special someone. Why do something you ALWAYS do? make it more interesting. Decide what you're gonna do after. That's what I'll do! It'll be very fun, and memorable.
Anyways! that's a lot of rambling right there. So, once again THANK YOU. You're the best fans in the world. Have fun with your "significant other" on Valentine's Day! I love you all very much.
Sincerely,
Nick
P.S. Rainbows are beautiful.
I was SO nervous about this project because its something thats so close to ME, that project is me, my lyrics, my FEELINGS, and my music, and just seeing people relating to it and enjoying it. Its just wonderful. I cannot stop smiling right now.
I know I made over a million dollars with the Who I Am Tour, and NOW the record selling so many copies. I'm just in shock. I worked so hard into getting this done, I poured my soul into this project. I love this, you have no idea guys. I'm SO happy, and its just wow.
As you also may know I recorded "Stay" a few weeks ago. Everyone LOVED the song, and I can say that is my favorite song that I've written. Everyone is fighting over who the song is about, and I once AGAIN say, it shouldn't matter. That song is about someone that I love, that is MY inspiration, that is MY everything. And that's for ME to know and you to wonder about. You might think you have it all figured out, and you THINK you know who this is about, but truly you guys have NO idea. You have no idea how I feel, or what I was thinking when I wrote it.
I love this song, and I hope you feel like you can relate to it. Its my own favorite. I enjoy singing it, I enjoy performing it. And I'm happy that all of you get to hear it.
Anyways, like I said a few days ago I am SUPER content with life. Everything is so amazing, and I'm so happy with everything.
Valentine's Day is coming soon! And I have NO idea what I'm gonna do. I'm the kinda person that waits until the day, because if you PLAN something you might change your mind after. A lot of people go to the movies, or dinner, etc. And sounds like a plan. I'm more of the kinda person that likes to wait, do it randomly. I like doing spontaneous things, it doesn't make it any less romantic, it just makes it more interesting. Valentine's Day is just about spending the day with your special someone. Why do something you ALWAYS do? make it more interesting. Decide what you're gonna do after. That's what I'll do! It'll be very fun, and memorable.
Anyways! that's a lot of rambling right there. So, once again THANK YOU. You're the best fans in the world. Have fun with your "significant other" on Valentine's Day! I love you all very much.
Sincerely,
Nick
P.S. Rainbows are beautiful.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Twitter: Deleted?
yes, I deleted NickyJonas for personal issues. However, I will keep this blog. I will keep updating you about myself, and some things.
I don't know if I want nickyjonas back, maybe. As of now, I'll keep nickjonas and update you from there. I'll schedule some livechats, we'll do some Q&A all from here. I don't know. We'll see.
Before you ask of anything, I'm really HAPPY. I fixed some things with someone. I can guarantee you I AM as happy as I can be. I can't say too much. But I'm feeling a lot better than I did last night. We'll see how things work out. I MIGHT make another account like Nickyjonas in the future, I don't KNOW, yet. It all depends on how I might feel in the future.
Also, I want to say Super Bowl game was AMAZING! one of the best games I've watched.. on a SPECIAL day too. I'm pretty much gonna remember that day for a LONG time. Anyway, I just wanted to catch you up on that, and that I LOVE you all who stuck up for me, and that have been there from the beginning.
We'll see how the twitter thing goes. You're the best fans in the world, I know I say that a LOT, but its true. You're all the reason I am where I am. You made ME, I love you. I truly do, and I hope you know that.
God bless you,
Nick
P.S. I love when smiles reach your eyes.
I don't know if I want nickyjonas back, maybe. As of now, I'll keep nickjonas and update you from there. I'll schedule some livechats, we'll do some Q&A all from here. I don't know. We'll see.
Before you ask of anything, I'm really HAPPY. I fixed some things with someone. I can guarantee you I AM as happy as I can be. I can't say too much. But I'm feeling a lot better than I did last night. We'll see how things work out. I MIGHT make another account like Nickyjonas in the future, I don't KNOW, yet. It all depends on how I might feel in the future.
Also, I want to say Super Bowl game was AMAZING! one of the best games I've watched.. on a SPECIAL day too. I'm pretty much gonna remember that day for a LONG time. Anyway, I just wanted to catch you up on that, and that I LOVE you all who stuck up for me, and that have been there from the beginning.
We'll see how the twitter thing goes. You're the best fans in the world, I know I say that a LOT, but its true. You're all the reason I am where I am. You made ME, I love you. I truly do, and I hope you know that.
God bless you,
Nick
P.S. I love when smiles reach your eyes.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Life
Do we ever know what life is all about? living? No, I don't think you were given a life just to live it like is nothing. We're all human, right? We all make mistakes, we all do stupid things, we all say things we don't mean sometimes when we're upset. Its all true and sometimes you can't change the past. But, what I don't understand how is it so right for someone to make the same mistakes over and over KNOWING its just the same thing over again. I don't understand it, do they enjoy in? I get making mistakes comes with growing. I make mistakes everyday of my life. But I don't UNDERSTAND why is making the SAME mistake such a big "thrill" for some people. Its just tiring and stupid to me. And CHILDISH.
I may be too mature, or maybe just not mature at all. But my point of view on things have changed over the past few months. I used to be okay with repeating a story and making someone happy doing stuff their way. But honestly I'm just SICK and tired of the same routine now. I hate telling myself over and over "That's what she said." All. The.Time. I remind myself to not take too seriously what anyone says when they're having their "moment". Okay, cool if you want to do the same mistakes, if you want to say things in the spare of the moment. Go ahead. But don't say it so much it comes out sounding like bullcrap.
A lot of you must be thinking "He is upset." Yes, I admit. I'm upset. I'm beyond pissed. Because I've been put where I was a year ago. In the same position, same story. I am happy with most of it, I've BEEN happy. I have. But I feel like I'm walking on a safe path! I'm not learning anything from it! I don't even know what the hell I want. Its stupid, I'm confused now. I'm so mad, upset and confused. Because I thought I wanted to be where I am, but now I'm just NOT SURE anymore! I'm caught between these stupid feelings. But once again, I'm human. MAYBE this is my mistake, maybe I'm the one that's wrong. But I can't help the way I feel, I just can't. This is just something thats bothering me so much. I want to make sure I'm happy years from now. Not oblivious to the world, and how it works. I'm just.. I don't know.
I would love it if you commented this and tell me what you thought afterwards. ALL of you, tell me what you think of this and how you see it.
Sincerely,
Nicholas
I may be too mature, or maybe just not mature at all. But my point of view on things have changed over the past few months. I used to be okay with repeating a story and making someone happy doing stuff their way. But honestly I'm just SICK and tired of the same routine now. I hate telling myself over and over "That's what she said." All. The.Time. I remind myself to not take too seriously what anyone says when they're having their "moment". Okay, cool if you want to do the same mistakes, if you want to say things in the spare of the moment. Go ahead. But don't say it so much it comes out sounding like bullcrap.
A lot of you must be thinking "He is upset." Yes, I admit. I'm upset. I'm beyond pissed. Because I've been put where I was a year ago. In the same position, same story. I am happy with most of it, I've BEEN happy. I have. But I feel like I'm walking on a safe path! I'm not learning anything from it! I don't even know what the hell I want. Its stupid, I'm confused now. I'm so mad, upset and confused. Because I thought I wanted to be where I am, but now I'm just NOT SURE anymore! I'm caught between these stupid feelings. But once again, I'm human. MAYBE this is my mistake, maybe I'm the one that's wrong. But I can't help the way I feel, I just can't. This is just something thats bothering me so much. I want to make sure I'm happy years from now. Not oblivious to the world, and how it works. I'm just.. I don't know.
I would love it if you commented this and tell me what you thought afterwards. ALL of you, tell me what you think of this and how you see it.
Sincerely,
Nicholas
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